Notes from the 1st marriage, Part 1

Courtship

In the early days, we had copious amounts of sex. There was, in fact, copious copulation. That is, once she finally gave in. She had been holding out. And then, when it finally happened, I discovered that she was not a virgin. I had so expected that she was, not that that made a difference to me. I didn't have some sort of fetish for untouched women. Even now, I prefer a woman who really knows how to fuck. I just assumed that she was a virgin and I was wrong.

We met in our undergrad, and within a few months, we were fucking like crazy. We screwed everywhere. Those were the days when we would visit my dad, go up to my old room and fuck, sometimes twice. We had sex 11 times in one week (that doesn't seem like so much now, I have to say). But, I remembered the number and I told my friend about it. I remember one night, we had sex 5 times on a water bed. That record stood for me for while: I broke it last year, 16 years later. That's not bad, I say. (Forget what you have heard about men being at their sexual peak at 18: that's a load of crap).

Suddenly, the sex stopped. Really, it slowed down. She was worried that I only wanted sex. That's what she said. I knew it was true, but I couldn't say that I only wanted her pussy. I did like being with her, but I knew I was constantly looking at other woman, thinking about their tits, wanting to see them stripped bare, wanting to lick and fuck them. Even then, I felt obsessed.

I dumped my small collection of porn before moving in with her. There wasn't much: just a few girlie mags, nothing hardcore. But, I remember that I had a fabulous number of wanks looking at the glossy cunts and hard nipples, wishing that I could be part of the photo.

Where have I been?

I know, it been ages since I lasted posted. Forgive me, for I have sinned. When I have a spare moment, I will update this blog.

A Sexual Alphabet

A is for ample, anal and ass
B is for breasts, bondage and boots
C is for clitoris, cock and curious
D is for dungeon, dildo and deep
E is for ecstasy, erotic and ejaculation
F is for finger, frolic and fuck
G is for g-spot, gay and gang bang
H is for hard, harder and hardest
I is for insertion, infidelity and inches
J is for jacking, jealous and jism
K is for kissing, kinky and knob
L is for lick, lesbian and latex
M is for masturbation, marriage and mammary
N is for nylons, necking and nooky
O is for onanism, orgasm and ooh!
P is for penetration, pumping and plundered
Q if for queer, queen and quench
R is for randy, racy and raunchy
S is for suck, slut and swallow
T is for tight, tits and tart
U if for uniform, undress, and unbelievable
V is for vagina, virgin and vixen
W is for wet, wild and willing
X is for x-rated, xxx and Xavier
Y is for you, yummy and yearn
Z if for zipper, zealous and zelophile

My First Time with S.

I remember that we had been necking a lot that summer. After a while, she let me play with her breasts. Soon, our making out sessions included me getting my hands up her skirt and into her panties. I remember how her face flushed and I knew she was wet even before I touched her. I felt her erect nipples, then worked my hand under her clothing until my fingers were inside her. I'd carry that smell of her pussy around on my hands for a few days before it was completely gone. As much as I loved this, I really wanted to fuck her.

I never guessed that it would happen in her single bed early in the evening with her parents watching Dan Rather in the living room only a few feet away. This time, I started to undress her. I wanted her naked. I got her top off and licked and sucked her nipples. She liked that, although I realized just then that she had never laid a hand on me, never once reached down to touch my stiff cock. She avoided it.

When her pants came off, I did what I thought was the natural and expected thing to do: I tried to go down on her and she stopped me! I was stunned. What woman, I wondered, doesn't like to receive oral sex? It makes no sense. She was not interested in giving me any either. But, fuck, we did.

There is nothing like the first time: the fast breathing, hearts racing, that first penetration, the wetness, the hot slippery wetness, the smooth slippery pussy, and I was thrusting and she closed her eyes. My tongue in her mouth and then on her tits, a hand tucked around her ass and rubbing her clit. There was no condom, just hard throbbing skin sliding into her wet hole.

She came, arching her back, eyes closed. I love that part, when she is done and you are not. You can try to bring her off again or just finish. (I also realized that she was a missionary girl). So, I stayed in that position, moved back onto my knees so that I could see my cock slip in and out of her cunt. I really wanted to roll her over, to screw her from the back, but I knew that wouldn't happen.

I was enjoying it still, the hot wet pussy, my cock, long and hard and ready to explode. I leaned in and whispered that I loved fucking and she cringed. She didn't like dirty talk. I wanted to tell her that her cunt was hot, that her tits looked awesome, but she clearly hated the word fuck. I sensed that she wanted me to finish. I wanted to see the action again, so I leaned back to watch my cock fuck her. And, soon I came. I really slammed into her and came hard. I may have said "fuck that was good," but I am not sure.

Soon, there was a wet spot on the bed.

Sexual Addiction

I haven't posted too much recently. I was wondering about the term sexual addiction, mostly because I wonder if I'm an addict. I can go without sex for a while but it an overpowering desire that I have difficulty suppressing. At one point in my life, I was married with two girlfriends, both of them very awesome. It seemed that I was continually having sex.

I am not sure that there are sex addicts. After all, if you took a self-diagnosed sex addict on a camping trip with no possibility for sexual outlet, I am sure that they would function fine and not have some sort of withdrawal event. That, to me, is addiction: the fact that you have withdrawal. I thought I was an addict, but I think that I am merely obsessed. I enjoy sex immensely.

There was a time when I was interested in phone sex, escorts, massage parlors, pornography, etc. I have now channeled that energy into real women who enjoy sex. My girlfriend doesn't want to have sex, she wants me to fuck her. That, I like. She loves to swallow. She likes greek. She's awesome. But, the truth is that if an awesome woman propositioned me, I would not refuse. Maybe I am just a slut.